Re: Activating Passive Forum Members
Posted: Tue Nov 09, 2021 8:57 pm
Thanks again frater Nefastos for your kind and considerate words.
Before this peste situation I was pushing the envelope way too hard. I was all over the place. Energies spread on too many things. For someone hyper like me that's a recipe for an eventual crash. Being forced to concentrate more singularly taught me valuable lessons about myself. Namely that I can do it. That I don't need to be constantly doing many things. I quit all social media years ago. I thought differently then but now I see it was depression. Not clinical depression, but exhaustion due to creating content on many platforms, art projects, work, all these things. It left me feeling malnourished in my soul. Like I was drained.
Until recently I was in denial about the effects of this pandemic on my life. I thought I was practically immune to it, due to not needing to socialize too much and preferring solitude or company of immediate family, over other social gatherings. I guess it takes some time to be able to see these things more clearly. There is some Satanic irony in all of this though since at the same time these years have been more meaningful to me than most of the past decade. Many things have materialized, some things were left out but nothing is lost.
Before this peste situation I was pushing the envelope way too hard. I was all over the place. Energies spread on too many things. For someone hyper like me that's a recipe for an eventual crash. Being forced to concentrate more singularly taught me valuable lessons about myself. Namely that I can do it. That I don't need to be constantly doing many things. I quit all social media years ago. I thought differently then but now I see it was depression. Not clinical depression, but exhaustion due to creating content on many platforms, art projects, work, all these things. It left me feeling malnourished in my soul. Like I was drained.